I'm Fly like Paper I get High like Planes

WOW its really been a while. So heres a random blog...

-Lansing with the besties was GREAT! and wonderfully Drunk. Then I saw Butt Butt... I guess he's semi still in my life. but is that really the way I want it??

-Partied with CMRS *YIPPEE*... I love them. The Liquor was flowing, secret crushes were revealed, Booty's were grabbed lol. Omar doing random Drunkin Push-ups. My right hand man is always drunk and shirtless and rambling... He claimed to have raised us all. still wondering how that possible if we all met like 2 years ago :-/

-"what would you say... if I told you... you was... FINE!" - me

-Seriously I gotta get outa this house with my father. He's crazy. Apartment shopping NOW!

-its SO hard to keep your head up when people seem to be obsessed with seeing you fail. no-matter how sad I get all I wanna do is kill them with success :) so who's gonna be down for me???

-I submitted a youtube of me singing to this contest at random! lol

-I SWEAR this nigga think I'm dumb. Dont forget I know every trick in the book cuz I've Done Them ALL! but ay if you like it I love it... its all Gravy Baby! :)

- I HATE fat girls that think they r just THICK.... its a major difference. Thick Girls dont have a GUT! and STOP GETTIN BELLY RINGS!

-Got some new Iceskates. makes me smile :)

-So my Birthday is Coming up (OCT 27th)... and i'm happy to say I am still Child Free!!!!* YIPPEE*

-I kinda miss my Rooster... just a little bit! You better not have found you another chicken! lol

- Dunlap:: The fat that Dun Lapped over yo pants!

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Current Jamz::
"Paper Planes" - M.I.A.

Quote of the day::
"What would you say if I told you... you was... FINE"

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I wanna LIVE!

today I decided I wanna live. and not just be alive but LIVE! I wanna be happy not practical. I dont wanna play it safe. I'm not happy right now. What I am is stable. nothings REALLY that bad. Everything is... Normal. But seriously whats about "normal" screams FUN! EXCITING! or SPECTACULAR! Those are words that I wanna be able to use to describe my life and how I feel about it. Today I went to see "The Family that Preys". It was a wonderful movie. It got me really thinking about life though. A woman asked "are you really living or are you just existing?". I have been asking myself that question all day. Then today someone VERY close to my heart attempted to take his life. The truth is I have had a moment like that so I know what that feels like. To think life cant get ANY better and it hurts so much to think that someone I care for so much could feel that same pain that I once felt and very much still understand. I dont want anyone to think they cant LIVE and be happy...and I dont want anyone to feel that low because I know that thats like... it sucks! So I'm gonna do everything I can to make sure I dont even get close to that road again and neither do anyone I care for. I'm just really upset right now and for whatever reason this lil blog helps me vent and sort out my head.

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Current Jamz::
"live your life"- TI ft Rihanna

Quote of the Day::
"Are you Really Living or just Existing"

This love is takin all of my Energy

So as of right now... itunes on shuffle, AIMing Stef, thinking of a master plan. I need to move out ASAP so I think me n Stef are gonna do that. Once again... caught in limbo with the EX... UGH! I just wanna be happy... when will it be my turn??? like do you ever think hey... when will it be MY turn to be happy??? when will it be MY turn to fall in love??? seriously... I'm like this. If imma actually be WITH someone I either want the REAL thing or simply to just be single and have fun. Those Semi-Serious relationships that last all of a couple months are so pointless. I realize that I DESERVE to be some ones one n only. And Settling for less and I deserve is another form of doubt in myself.

-Wrote a note on FB about giving away the secrets to being a player... really just to prove to the players that even after their groupies read my note and notice all the signs they still wont stop talking to them. Simply because people believe what they want to in the end. so if you dont wanna believe your getting played despite all the signs you simply just wont believe it.

-Random Thought:: I LOVE KERI HILSON! seriously... she had 2 grow on me but i love her music now and her hair cut is so pretty

-So here are some random sexual terms me n my friends have stumbled across this past week::

*DickMitten = Vagina

*Have you misplaced jesus lately???= Have you had sex lately??... heres the back story. My friend had a this guy... a "Friendly Fuck" so one day he goes to church and returns and says "we cant have sex anymore because I found jesus" but he calls a week later wanting to fuck... so was jesus misplaced??? I'm just sayin...

*Would you like to experience the Chronicles of Narnia? = Would you like to have sex?

-So this random girl told my friend I told her all of his business... but in reality I have never had a conversation with this girl in my life. dont even kno who she is... Bitch your random

OH YEA New Pics::




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Current Jamz::
"Energy"- Keri Hilson

Quote of the day::
"never settle for less that you deserve because thats another form of doubt in yourself"

UGH mad at my father

So its begun... My father is back to acting like the Ass-Hole that he is. Its clear to me that he was just acting nice until I got settled into the house. Moving back home was a HUGE mistake and I cant lie... EVERYONE who knows my father knew it was just a front but I didn't listen. I think its time to move back out so right now I'm thinkin of a master plan.Thinking about just going to Chicago early.Seriously I find myself avoiding him like in the house like I used to. I thought we were past this. On another note... one of my visions is finally all coming together. I'm just waiting on one phone call to make it complete. everything else is going good. The music thing is going well also. The only things bringing me down is my damn father and its so hard because I live with this FOOL so I can only avoid him so much. I think thats all for now....


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Current Jamz::
"As We Lay" - Kelly Price

Quote of the day::
"The only way that this will work is if you love me when it hurts"

Robbed By Probably

your probably gonna stay around
you'll probably love me forever
I'll probably end up marring you
and We'll probably stay together
Your probably happy with me
You'll probably be there through thick and thin
You'll probably never leave me
and We'll probably be together in the end
you'll probably always be in my life
and I'm probably all you'll ever need
All this time I stuck with this
while probably was robbing me
robbing me of my chance to live
and to find something real
robbed me of every chance I had
to see and breath and feel
now because I spent my time on a probably
I'll probably never find anything true
I only had one life to live
wasted on a probably like you

-Laura

Worthless Pennies and New Beginings

feeling so... BLAH. So I'm excited about fall coming. I'm excited about school, My birthday,and dressing up on halloween. Then winter brings all my favorite holidays... Christmas and Valentines day. My last 2 valentines days sucked ass. Crashed my car one year then the other was just a sucky day thanks to the *wonderful* guy I was dating at the time. I been taking things slow this time. giving myself time to get over the past and to slowly grow into something else. Always following my right mind and not listening to anyone elses little input or whatever they have to say. I can honestly say I'm happy. but the deeper I get the scarier it is."love is like fire. but whether its gonna warm your heart or burn down your house you can never tell" . but its better than my past I can tell you that. I kinda pushed him away yesterday. its so hard not to do that when you have been hurt before. I'm even so much happier with the friends I have. most of my friend I have known for years! and I know they always have my best interest at heart. Even the newbies I have good feelings about.

-Currently in The Musk! AKA Muskegon. Visiting my grandparents. My grandmother doesnt remember anything and kinda just blabs out the first words that come to her mind which dont make sense most of the time. right now shes talking about "loving cookies" . so we just got her some cookies... maybe thats not even what she wanted :-/

- So my boy sent me a text that said "vote for Obama or be a slave"... I mean seriously everybody keeps complaining about how the U.S. has been run for the past 8 years. Why wouldnt we vote in someone who atleast wants and hopes for major change just as we all do??? I'm just sayin...

-My brother finds out he might be diabetic. but he doesnt fret... A quote from my brother Stephen Tyler "it aint shit boosie got that shit 2"... so basically what I'm getting at it Boosie is a inspiration for young people with diabetes.

-Me n Stef r laughing right now... Got this quote from my girl "you like a penny 2 faced and worthless"

- Imma need someone 2 find Darnell! Hes lost in Houston . I'm sending out a search party.

- If you dont like me... then dont like me and dont acknowledge me. dont speak on me, speak 2 me, read my blogs, look at my page, make any I hate Laura clubs...just erase this person you hate so much out of your life and memory because clearly thats the better solution than dwelling on someone that wont change. Plus I'm WONDEROUS! why would I change??? lol if your reading this and you dont like me... it means your a borderline obsessed PSYCHO!

- So me n Terryl just had the biggest laugh ever!!!! nigga u just cant go around *stabbin* anybody lmao! but I think we got to the bottom of your problem!

- I learned about The Link, The Rating System, and Back dooring all in one visit... I dont promote any of this... I'm Anti-Back dooring.

- I hate freshman boys who think they got game and they r the shit just cuz they were the shit in high school. NEWS FLASH! you start over when you get to college... your fresh meat and trust me thats not a cool thing to be.

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Current Jamz::
"you got it bad" - Usher

Quote of the day- "your like a penny. 2faced and worthless"

its so cold in tha D... how the fuck do we posed to keep peace???

I kinda feel bad for laughing so hard and shes talking about death... but I cant help it!!!


side note:: notice her friend in the background smiling and dancing the whole time!!!