I wanna LIVE!

today I decided I wanna live. and not just be alive but LIVE! I wanna be happy not practical. I dont wanna play it safe. I'm not happy right now. What I am is stable. nothings REALLY that bad. Everything is... Normal. But seriously whats about "normal" screams FUN! EXCITING! or SPECTACULAR! Those are words that I wanna be able to use to describe my life and how I feel about it. Today I went to see "The Family that Preys". It was a wonderful movie. It got me really thinking about life though. A woman asked "are you really living or are you just existing?". I have been asking myself that question all day. Then today someone VERY close to my heart attempted to take his life. The truth is I have had a moment like that so I know what that feels like. To think life cant get ANY better and it hurts so much to think that someone I care for so much could feel that same pain that I once felt and very much still understand. I dont want anyone to think they cant LIVE and be happy...and I dont want anyone to feel that low because I know that thats like... it sucks! So I'm gonna do everything I can to make sure I dont even get close to that road again and neither do anyone I care for. I'm just really upset right now and for whatever reason this lil blog helps me vent and sort out my head.

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Current Jamz::
"live your life"- TI ft Rihanna

Quote of the Day::
"Are you Really Living or just Existing"