You kno you a weak ass nigga when....

I'm sorry I just felt this necessary. maybe this will inspire some of these young men to get it together and stop being a weak ass.

you kno you a weak ass nigga when....

- when you are LEASING a nice ass car but you still stay in your moms basement (note I said leasing and not buying)

- When you are a... lets just say "hustler" but you still walkin around the mall with NO BAGS!

- When you and yo girl get to the end of the drive thru at wendys and you "left yo wallet at home"

- when you are STILL doin ALL YOU CAN 2 keep them white forces crispy that you bought 3 years ago

- When you cant go a damn day without using something yo girl bought or gave to you but she goes everyday without using anything you bought her

- when you use this weak ass excuse for gettin caught up on facebook "my boy got my password and he just be doin stuff on my page"

- when you keep sayin you gonna go back to school but you been sayin that since you left school 4 years ago!

- when you come at a girl talkin about you got a range... but when its time to go out she gotta pick you up... because your "range" is conveniently in the shop.

- when one of the 1st things you tell a girl is that you "got a record deal"...like most people DONT lie about that...

- When there is always a convenient excuse when your weak-assness shows

- now its ok to talk during sex... but when you KEEP asking if she likes it. thats some weak shit. just DO IT! are you trying to re-assure yourself???

- When you are a FB groupie... if you find the girl attractive more than likely there are 10 more guys that day who thought the same and sent her the same "hey sexy hi u doin" message that you did

- when you are a broke drug dealer... yup I said it... and its most of yall! now when you go to jail you cant even bail yourself out!

- when you are not claiming or taking care of your kids... shit just aint cool.


well.... that is all...

oh and please believe the females got one comin to!

TTFN!

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Current Jamz::
"We Still" - Tamia

Quote of the day::
"imma need you to um.... get your life together IMMEDIATELY"

Everybody knows... nobody really knows (update on ME)

So... as far as people thinkin I been MIA. HA! FOOLED YOU!


ME! apparently my mixtape is selling out... and apparently I got lots of fans right now. good shit


I kno yall kno this magazine... ong of my dreams was to be in this. well lets just say I'll be in LA feb 7th... SUPER GOOD SHIT!

sooooo.... here are some of my latest shots...




Photographer:: Anthony Collins... LOVES YOU!



Photographer:: Dante Marshall... LOVES YOU 2! lol... from the $10 photoshoot!
ATTENTION PEOPLE Dante is not a thief! you will get ur pics back... dont take "legal action" or anything lol. (ahhh lol that just tickled me)

THROWBACK PIC!


Photographer:: Duane Johnson... POOH! Def put all the girls on blast with his "throwback" facebook album... but I dont mind. I was hot and barely legal! lol
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So this is sum of the stuff I'm feelin right now!


Heres a new song my my buddy... I like it. SO U BETTER LIKE IT TOO!
Click here to listen/download "SAY YOU WILL FT. P.L."


Here is Dj Mo Beatz mixtape... hours and hours and days and days went into this so you should ummmm DOWNLOAD THE SHIT!

CLICK HERE to go to his blog and download the mixtape



I just really love this song :)

Emotional me... I'll always be that girl!

I know this is gonna start off sounding like a regular "anti men" blog... but its not so just hear me out. lately I have been super emotional. I really just got out a 3 year... well I dont know weather to call it a relationship or a setback. now... it took me 3 years to find my strength because I was looking for "closure". well I finally have that and seriously I just realize it wasnt worth the extra wasted time. Every day waking up not knowing if I will be reminded once again how I wasnt "enough" and how someone else always was and being reminded of how weak I was. always being scared to leave just to find the next guy was gonna be just like him... honestly it was enough to drive a person crazy. but dispite all that... I did love him... once. so no the closure I finally found was not worth all the pain but the experiance of being in love was. I just now almost wish it would have ended sooner... so I wouldnt have all these horrible memories to block out the good ones from way back when. so another guy comes into my life and he's wonderful!... he would probably be more wonderful if I wasnt so crazy. lol. but eventhough things are not ending in a happily ever after this is good enough. they say everyone comes into your life for a purpose well he showed me I deserve for someone to be nice to me :) and thats a great feeling. Hes a wonderful guy... any girl that gets him is lucky as hell.but I do have a friend at the end of it... hopefully lol so thats my thanks to him. at the end of this whole ordeal I just realize I need to focus on myself and be happy with the people god has blessed me with. Love will come if you deserve it. and through everything my friends have been there. They have wiped my tears time and time again but never called me stupid. They have come to my resue whenever I needed. Brought me the flowers a boyfriend never has (paymon lol). spent time with me when I was alone. and I was ALWAYS good enough for them :) I'm prolly gonna get cussed out for even writing all this but he should know I love him... its just I can only be me and I can only make myself forgive so much before its a front.

so my points are at the end of this blog...

dont worry about nobody whos not worried about u
if your a good person you deserve that in return
at the end of they day love aint shit without a friendship and a respect
and sometimes closure is just realizing within yourself its not worth waiting for...

as of right now I am still stuck in detroit
got a test shoot with "SHOW MAGAZINE" on feb 7th... I'm geeked
school starts soon UGH!
My bestie kristen has decided to move to the promise land with me (phoenix)
YAY! I got alot on my plate...

but now I have accepted the fact I will never be a perfect girl
I'll always be ditzy, emotional, and alittle off... and yea sometimes I FREAK OUT!
but I can be happy with that :)

P.S..... Kanye West new album is like a soundtrack for suicide! WTF it makes me super depressed!

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Current Jamz::
"Rehab"- Rihanna

Quote of the Day::
"I'm so startled!" lmao (inside)

Scared of Lonely

So heres an update on my life since I have been in phoenix

-I feel somewhat alone... like something is missing. but its not like I haven't for a while. I do although feel like this is the perfect opportunity to regain my unconditional happiness. All the people that love and care for me the most are here in spirit and they will always have my back even from across the country. I am very lucky and am working on building myself up

-I have been doing a lot of networking. and helping my new friend Stan with his All Star weekend events...
www.aceblack.com

-all the guys here have the same pickup line.... " do u like to party? " ummm and they r all pretty much weak as fuck. maybe I should attempt to meet an older man???... uck no nevermind. but the ones my age are so thirsty!!!

- I got my palms read... it was CRAZINESS I swear.

- Honestly right now I'm pretty upset... I kno wat I gotta do tho

- MY NOSE IS PIERCED! and is like super cute... but I guess I look just like mya now :-/

- My mother and I are opening a store here in downtown phoenix. well its really my store but i'm using her money :)

- "sometimes I feel like theres no gettin thru to you like you dont appreciate all that I do. you gotta show me that you want me to stay. dont turn and walk away. I'm slowly fallin out of love with you I dont know what to do"

- So apparently I'll be going for the cover of "AZ Nightlife" for the month of the All Star game... kool beans

- I will be in Detroit for Newyears! Yay! thanks 2 my big bro for buyin my ticket.

- I now LOVE the jonas brothers aka the Jo Bros lol




Does anyone see a problem with this damn thing! its just a backwards robe!

I think thats about it for now

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Current Jamz::
" Scared of lonely" - Beyonce

Quote of the day::
" your having a random outburst of thirst!"

Sad Shit, Cute Shit, and Funny Shit

This shit if just fucking Sad. I cant even Laugh at a bitch being this dumb. Well Yes I can! lol



Now THIS little fucker is cute.... and I cant stop singing the song



No matter how many times I watch this I still CRY Laughing... U just gotta have my humor

So Check out my Buddy Scolla

So I guess he comin out with a full length studio album.... should be hot shit!

Its called "THE PERFECTION THEORY" so look out for that




And click the link below to check out his new song

Click here to listen/download "Married Man"
and NOOOO its not a cake song lol...

TTFN

UNDER CONSTRUCTION! Me & My Blog :)

My New Blog layout is currently under construction and so is my life. I recently moved to phoenix which is by far the BIGGEST move I have ever made. I had a hard enough time switching schools in high-school but even then I always had Kristen with me... we always ended up in the same place. I was afraid until I landed... I had finally left my comfort zone. But as I landed I honestly felt a sense of relief. I realized I had made myself comfortable in a mediocre setting. Allowing myself to be surrounded by drama and always looking for the next quick temporary fix. I made myself comfortable expecting disappointment and being content with the same ol same ol. Now I can focus on ME and bettering my life. Now I can worry about whats the next step to following my dreams instead of worrying about petty drama and what the next person will say. I know there is drama everywhere but this time I have a fresh start and a little more knowledge about how people can be. Looking back on my past and wonder maybe if I wasn't so nice could people have done the things they did to me. If I hadn't been so naive would I still have been taken advantage of. If I hadn't loved so hard could I still have been hurt. and if I hadn't made some of the mistakes I made would I still be the same person. but finally I am not worried about it anymore. I am ME! and that is wonderous! lol...and I have faith that me and my friends... my true friends... will be ok. Sure we will all grow and change but my REAL friends are naturally the most fun, original, quirky people and thats why we love each-other. We will be ok... I probably wont stay here forever but I am using this time to focus. I LOVE YOU ALL!.... Remember my page is under construction! TTFN!

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Current Jamz::
"what were you thinking" - Joss Stone

Quote of the Day::
"I realized I had become a grown woman when I started thinking more about myself and less about what people thought of me"

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