Must Love Laura

All For Me

2010-04-18T20:24:00.000-07:00

its been a long while since I have written a public blog. A lot has changed in my life since then. NO FACEBOOK and NO TWITTER! Seriously I needed a break from internet drama. Im kinda back into the real world. like if someone wants to reach me... they can CALL ME and not FB message me... if someone needs to have a dose of Laura they can send me a text and not Tweet me. Its a good feeling. I might eventually reactivate them but when I'm ready. I'm realizing how much I miss my friends and need my family. My friends are my shoulder to cry on when something goes wrong and my family picks me up when I fall down. yea I've had my share of friendships that didnt last but I know I do have atleast a few real friends. Friends I can call after months of not speaking and they can still lift my spirits when I need them. Friends that know when I need space and I need them close. My friends have always been there when the guys have fucked up, when things arent goin right, when money was tight. I love all of you. and family yea they get dissapointed but I can always say they want whats best.... I called my friends today... and they were still there for me. I was withmy family and they still have faith in me.

Thank you

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Current Jamz::
"shes like a star" -Taio Cruz

Quote of the day::
" your friends are there before the guy and after he fuckes up"

New Chapter

2009-12-06T20:14:00.000-08:00

I went out lastnight. I watched people having fun. My fun only lasted a while. First of all if people think I am in Vegas partyin every night they are sadly mistaken. Once you actually LIVE in Vegas it just becomes normal. The Upside to living here is that theres always something to do. The downside is my friends are not here to enjoy it with me. I missed my friends a lot last night. I missed the way things were. This had to happen one day. We are all coming into our own and becoming not a group of friends but individuals that are just friends.

Stefanie had baby Harriett! well I guess I can stop calling her Harriett and reveal her real name since she is born now. Jordyn Cherelle Wright was born Dec 4th 2009 and was 7 pounds 4 ounces. I'm so excited so I know Stefanie is overwhelmed with happiness. I still miss the days where there where no babies, boyfriends, and real life issues! but this is a new chapter in all of our lives.

I know your not suppose to make New Years resolutions and just do what the fuck you should be doing anyway... but hey... you gotta start somewhere. For me 2010 will be the year I let go of caring about things I cant change and worry about the things I can. I will no longer care what anybody else thinks because I should be focusing on all the things I have to finally be happy about. In this new year I will be myself. I will walk, talk and just be Laura. No one truly has a drama free life but I sure as hell will drop every bit I have the power to. I will focus on making this new chapter in my life better than the last.

Moving was the best thing I have ever done for myself.

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Current Jamz::
"Tiny Dancer"- Elton John

Quote of the Day::
"Nobody gets to live life backward. Look ahead, that is where your future lies"

Its Been WAY too long people!

2009-11-20T20:06:00.000-08:00

I kno I've been MIA from blogging for a while but I needed some time to clear my head and my thoughts so I can get everything out for you all to read. I mean how can I expect ya'll to understand me when I coudn't even understand myself? lol... anycrap... I've recently moved to Vegas which has honestly been one of the best things I have ever done for myself. I always stopped myself from moving out if Detriot... the city I hate so much... in fear that I would be missing something. It took for things to hit rock bottom for me to realize I wasn't missing shit. I mean seriously... what am I missing?? No jobs, a crappy school system, somewhere where everyones hood mentality gets the better of them, people who are not your friend for who you are but yet who they think you are and what you can do to benifit them. This was not about bettering myself as a person but yet just going somewhere better.

Now I will never forget the good things about detroit. Campus Martius every winter, Sherwood Coney, and the few friends I have but I now have a chance to become a more wordly person and experience something new for myself. an opportunity most people never get. I found myself in detroit becoming something I hated. Being forced to fight negitivity with more negitivity and I regret every bit of it. I'm not saying everyone that stayed is like a loser or anything but I'm just saying for me personally leaving was something I had to do to get the life experience that I need. I def didnt want getting out of detroit to be on my bucket list lol.

Since I left I have heard nothing but drama and sadness going on there. Just the other day my friend brandons older sister was found dead. Killed in a brutal way. I honestly think about it every day. Eventho I didnt know her on a very personal level she was always so nice to me and she took care of brandon who is one of my closest friends. I feel terrible that I cant be physically there to comfort him in his time of need. It was def the scariest and saddest thing I heard about hapening in detroit. RIP Shanita Brown... and Brandon I kno I act like a strict older sister sometimes but I'm always ALWAYS here if u need me.

I love my friends! Not all the associates that I claimed as friends in the past... but my TRUE friends. The ones that have always been a great support system to me. I am confident that my decision to move will not compromise a true friendship :)

Ive been getting great feedback from photographers out this way so I'm hoping to make some new connections. K.I.T people! I promise I wont wait this long to blog again.

New Pics!

Poem

2009-08-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

Our Fate

It all comes out too little to late

Its hard to believe this was our fate

That god let me believe you were the one

had me thinkin it was true love

The truth eventually comes to light

but sometimes its too late to make things right

sometimes it takes to be hurt to see the pain you caused

But at the end of the day it was all just a loss

Relationships are not a game so you shouldnt try to win

Hopefully next time you'll know you'll lose in the end

If you play the game of who causes the most pain

back and fourth back and fourth until it all goes down the drain

if you play with matches your bound to get burned

just promise me this will be a lesson learned

At the end of the day we lost something great

But now I have to know this was our fate

You Know Your a Wack Ass Bitch When... Pt 2

2009-07-24T12:29:00.000-07:00

Back by Popular Demand...

Part 2 of...

YOU KNOW YOUR A WACK ASS BITCH WHEN...

When you promote parites just to get in Free! with all that work u put in u might as well have paid the 5 dollars b4 midnight.
When you are fuckin several guys but have nothin to show for it. AKA you still are walkin everywhere cuz u aint got no ride in them SAME s.carters you had from 10th grade.
When you wear Cartier glasses because u think they make u look classy
When you are spring clothes shopping at Lee Beauty Supply... Yes we can all tell you got your clothes from there.
When you start shit on facebook. Seriously I'm tired of these facebook thugs. what ever happened to just fighting a bitch in the street??? its still hood rat-ish but atleast it aint wack and scary!
When you type in a way u think looks cute... (ex: using 3's for E's and q's for g's) WTF is yo problem?!?! that shit is NOT cute and u just took 5 extra minutes out yo live to type something that coulda took 5 seconds. Clearly u just a fool!
When you wear zillions to your wedding. sorry I had to say it.
When you are fuckin somebody elses boyfriend and thinks that makes you special. stop being a idiot... u were just another bitch who didnt get the title.
When your "Modeling Career" Consisted of being on flyers for free... and only because u asked to get put on it.
When you still Roll down ALL the windows of your car and BLAST music down the street to get attention because you want everyone to see u drivin. ummm how old are you???
When you fuck guys to get popular.... ewwww
When you are still wearing your nails after 2 r broken and 1 is completely popped off... because u wanna get a fill in. soooo.... your going to look like a fool in the mean time???
You still Hip Roll at Parties... Period!

Remember this note is ment to HELP people. as harsh at it may seem some people need a reality check.

I just Wanna be Successful

2009-07-24T12:03:00.000-07:00

New shots of me.

just check them out

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Current Jamz::

"Successful" -Drake

Quote of the Day::

"Success doesnt come to you. you go to it"

Big Seans Video

2009-07-23T19:06:00.000-07:00

FINALLY! I lowkey been waiting for this video.

I'm just Glad to see a detroiter from our generation making it.

Show Me Love

2009-07-12T01:10:00.000-07:00

Love is just a word now. Love has just as much meaning as the word VCR. Anybody can say it... we say it to friends we have known for all of 2 days (ex:"oh girl u kno i love u") This word used to have meaning, respect, and action behind it. It used to be special. I have not had one boyfriend who hasn't told me he loved me and I was always the only one smart enough not to say it right back. I guess my point is if you say you love someone dont think its special anymore, the action behind it is.

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Current Jamz::

"Number One" - John Legend

Quote::

"I tried to jack off & he said 'who is you playin wit'"

Kanglosta Ft. Princeton -Wanna Bet

2009-06-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

Check out Detroit's up and coming to the music scene "Kanglosta" as he drops his first single for the ladies titled "Wanna Bet" from his upcoming mixtape "The Academy Presents.........Kanglosta".

To Download click the zshare link below

http://www.zshare.net/download/58952694d07472a6/

Wanna Bet - Kanglosta ft. Princeton

Video Blog

2009-06-25T21:52:00.001-07:00

WTF Blanket!

2009-06-13T22:01:00.000-07:00

This is so freakin funny! it sums up how I feel about snuggies to the T

If you do not want to see me again I would understand

2009-06-10T10:51:00.000-07:00

today is just one of those days. one of those days you realize how much you life has changed in such a short amount of time. one of those days when you realize you need to stop holding onto the past and what was. one of those days where you realize that it doesnt matter if it was a good or bad thing but that it doesnt matter at all because whats done is done. I have stopped chasing people. I cant make someone love me. I cant make someone be my friend. I cant make someone want me around. The best things are natural. My vision of my life went from crystal clear to ... just blank. I have no idea whats next and I'm not sure if I like it or not. but I know one thing... I gotta figure it out. A year ago I had so many friends I could barf! lol. but I have lost more than half of them. Knowing how the pattern goes I'll probably lose more and just get some new ones. The true friends stay. and it doesnt matter if you have known them 2 weeks or 12 years... the real ones stay. But now I have no one to call... seriously. For the 1st time I think I feel 100% alone. Its not a good feeling but I guess its forcing me to actually deal with things.

Sorry I've been missing... but I'm BACK!

2009-05-28T22:45:00.000-07:00

So I've been busy finding myself... thats why I been MIA from the blog scene. But I'm back with updates. I was honestly motivated by this random man that came into my job today telling me that time waits for no one and I know he's right...

I kinda got into this "play it safe" mode which is very unlike me. I decided to just go to school and get a regular ass job and be a regular ass person... but I'm already bored with that idea so eff all that!

I decided to stop being a lazy bitch and actually go shoot with Show Mag like I was suppose to go do months ago. I had a minor setback and then just postponed until I could get out to LA but I guess I'm gonna make that happen...

I kinda like my new job... its growing on me. Especially since it just consists of bringing people their food and being pretty :) YAY HOOTERS!

I have realized... that you cant force someone to be your friend. You Win some You lose some. Its sad but at the end of the day its their loss.

YOUR A PATHETIC BITCH!... I just thought u should know :)

I wish people would stop getting shit airbrushed... thats so ummm 10th Grade pep rally!

I had stars on my 4head

Sooo... its prom season! ( my lil sis looked fab by the way..) and ummmm I wish these females would NOT get their prom dresses for $29.95 at Deb.. Yes I'm talkin about yall and YES we can tell!

well thats all for now... TTFN

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Current Jamz::

"Knocks You Down" -Keri Hilson

Quote of the Day::

"I just wanna punch you in the stomach and say 'oops I was just tryna get a pork chop' "

Promises Made and Promises Lost

2009-04-07T20:52:00.000-07:00

Promises made and promises lost

what really counts is suppose to be the thought

but the road to hell is paved with good intentions

maybe I should lower my expectations

Promises made and promises lost

I promised myself I would never be this girl again

shedding a tear for every promise broken

always in the dark to keep people from looking

but how can I even pretend

Promises made and promises lost

but I'm the one most at fault

I'm the biggest victim but committed the biggest crime

the broken promise that hurts the most is mine

- Laura

Plies New Reality Show "GOONETTE" ... wait until you see this!

2009-04-04T13:30:00.000-07:00

Plies New Reality show

He's looking for GOONETTS!

1st episode featuring a midget stripper...

WTF plies??? soooo random!

Who's life is it anyway!?!?!

2009-04-04T12:57:00.000-07:00

Havent really blogged in a while. I know everyone missed me :)

First of all I have a new life guideline. I have been sitting and thinking. Although my car is currently stuck, I had a stressful night, I might be a slight push over sometimes, and I am currently poor assin it! lol... I still am SOOOOOO happy. So my new rule is just to have fun.. dont worry.. and work on my flaws as I go. Im fortunate enough to not have any major worries in my life so I will take advantage of that.

on some side notes...

- Last night Esko Banged. although it didn't end how I would have liked. The bright side is that a successful event can be thrown.

- I feel like Plies is a life ruiner! like WHYYYYYYY wont he stop with all his randomness. I dont know what girl wants to be a "bus it baby" and if a guy EVER said "please excuse my hands" I would prolly cuss him out. seriously he himself as a person is not acceptable...

- So I guess Im back in detroit for a while now... mostly because I found love :)

- I have noticed that the happier you are the more people are jealous of you. people are jealous of happiness. thats really sad.... LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE!!!!

- I finally saw "American Pimp"... it was amazing. This documentary on pimps was funny and educational. I think I wanna b a pimp when I grow up lol

-I have this new found obsession with the show "whos wedding is it anyway??"... hummmm *hint hint*

- Hanging with my Manager & Day 26 on tuesday. then studio on thrusday!

- RANDOM:: What ever happened to the Olsen Twins??? Did one overdose and the other starve herself to death??? :-/

- "accept the truth about you. you know life goes on without you"

- I want some Lemon cake :(

- FINALLY! I have chosen my major and it is Criminal Justice. funny cuz I'm on probation. lol

- Some people just weren't worth having around

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Current Jamz:: "Mr. Intentional" -Lauryn Hill

Quote of the Day:: "the road to hell is paved with good intentions"

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Lucki Ent Events...

2009-03-26T09:47:00.000-07:00

Yes we just got back and we already got a few dates on the calendar...

Tomorrow! Lucki Ent is officially on
Sex Drive Fridays
EVERY Friday @ Esko
Ladies FREE until 12am
First 50 people FREE drink on us
and Mixed Drinks 1/2 off until 11

Also the Original Wild Wednesdays is BACK!
W.O.W.
Each and EVERY Wednesday @ Esko

Thats just a sample for now.... be back to post more events soon

FEELIN LUCKI!

2009-02-26T19:52:00.000-08:00

first off let me say LUCKI ENT's vlof is now up!

CLICK HERE to view the new blog!

Sorry I been MIA once again but heres an update::

- its been a HORRIBLE and I mean REALLY HORRRIBLE few weeks. I gotta go to the hospital, car gets fucked up, almost went to jail! sheesh! can I get a break!?!?

-I'm officially back in Michigan due to court order and LOVE <3 which will be explained later in the blog

- now due to all this BS I missed my LA photoshoot. but dont worry it is still going to happen. more than likely in march. but still I hate having to put things off

- I am now an artist with twisted management. I'm happy about that. they manage many established artists.

-some guy wrote me on FB saying "what hood you rep?" ... ummmm #1 i'm not from the hood... #2 y would you eve send that mess to me!

- I'm singing the national anthem at the promoters charity basketball game this saturday feb 28th @ Cass Tech. I'm a little nervous... but I guess its just the national anthem. its only like 4 lines.... right??? lol

-Also... I'm selling tickets to Debonaire Affair on March 14th @ Seldom Blues

hit me up!...

ummmm thats about it I believe... expect alot from LUCKI ENT and ME!

o yea... a video blog on my feelings on the Chris Brown and Riahanna situation... TEAM CB! lol

You know you a WACK ass Bitch when...

2009-01-28T21:24:00.000-08:00

I told yall this one was coming... now you kno the well awaited

you kno you a wack ass bitch when...

- your favorite song is "Independent" but you dont have your own house or car.... u dont have a job, work hard... and ur not a bad broad!... its funny how every girl get hype to this song but they dont even meet the qualifications to be independent

- When yo boyfriend paid for the birthday gift u bought him...

- you tellin every guy your a virgin but your clearly not

- When you and your friend go out matching... all the cool kids r laughing at you

- When you can CLEARLY and OBVIOUSLY see the difference between your weave and your real hair. even from a distance

- when you are 24 years old and have yet to move out of your parents house

- if you wear zillions to prom... but maybe put a cute clip in that shit

- when you fightin other females over a nigga... when YOUR the other woman. matter of fact... your a wack ass bitch for being the other woman at all! find ur own...

- when you trappin a nigga by havin his baby! and incase you didnt kno... HE WILL STILL LEAVE YOU!

- When in every picture you take you got sumthin of someone elses on...

- now no disrespect to any homosexual people. but we all kno there are alot of girls out here being PLAY GAY cuz they think its cute. well its not and its disrespectful to all the real gay people who r not out here frontin

- When you a hoe but you still liein about who you had sex wit. now u just a sneaky hoe

- if you rely on your man for EVERYTHING... then what you gonna do when he leave yo ass for the next girl who actually HAS something

- when you wearin clothes that are about 3 sizes to small... yes we can tell! cuz yo pants always look like u got a wedgie!

-when you got a belly ring but your clearly not in shape to be showin your stomach

- if you think you in a relationship with a nigga but you only see him at night. NEWS FLASH:: your just fuckin!!!

-When you call yourself a model but all you really do is take pictures just like every other girl...

-if you think Red Lobster is a fancy restaurant

- when your just a studio hoe...

- when you dont bring NO money 2 the club because you SURE you gonna be free b4 11pm

-when its snowin outside and yo ass still goes to the club with no coat... you are no longer the cute girl you are the COLD girl. I will GIVE you $3 for coat check

-if you kno your man is cheating on you... but you just dont say shit.

well thats it...

if ya dont kno now ya kno!

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Current Jamz::
"Bricks" -Gucci

Quote of the Day::
"ok I will come... but I doubt you need company with all them bootys in your face lol"

Welcome back Lucki Ent.

2009-01-26T22:26:00.000-08:00

is it ok to cry..

2009-01-23T00:46:00.000-08:00

I'm honestly a naturally emotional person. I cant help it... I wear my heart on my sleeve. When I'm upset I'm REALLY upset. When I get happy I get SUPER happy. When I love I love HARD. and when it hurts it hurts BAD. and yea sometimes I freak out and just pour all my emotions out at once. My thing is... you kno some people tell you things like "oh no dont cry its not worth it" or "crying doesnt solve anything" while others tell you to let it out. WHAT DO I DO! like honestly sometimes I just feel like I need to just cry. I hate letting people see me cry... thats a no no. but damnit sometimes if you have pent up emotion it becomes to much. I just figure damnit it might not actually solve anything but it sure as hell can make you feel alot better just by not keeping it inside. I'm not gonna feel bad for cryin sometimes. or getting emotional... cuz at the end of the day I'd much rather have these feelings and emotions then be heartless and have none at all. so I'm a little sad right now... it sucks to be misunderstood. especially when you cant fix it. but my mom always tells me... there is a end to everything. which means every pain, hurt, and heartbreak will eventually be over. thats a good way to think about things. I love my mom :D

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Current Jamz::
"I wish I never met you" - Trina

Quote of the Day::
"however long the night, the dawn will break"

You kno you a weak ass nigga when....

2009-01-18T23:50:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry I just felt this necessary. maybe this will inspire some of these young men to get it together and stop being a weak ass.

you kno you a weak ass nigga when....

- when you are LEASING a nice ass car but you still stay in your moms basement (note I said leasing and not buying)

- When you are a... lets just say "hustler" but you still walkin around the mall with NO BAGS!

- When you and yo girl get to the end of the drive thru at wendys and you "left yo wallet at home"

- when you are STILL doin ALL YOU CAN 2 keep them white forces crispy that you bought 3 years ago

- When you cant go a damn day without using something yo girl bought or gave to you but she goes everyday without using anything you bought her

- when you use this weak ass excuse for gettin caught up on facebook "my boy got my password and he just be doin stuff on my page"

- when you keep sayin you gonna go back to school but you been sayin that since you left school 4 years ago!

- when you come at a girl talkin about you got a range... but when its time to go out she gotta pick you up... because your "range" is conveniently in the shop.

- when one of the 1st things you tell a girl is that you "got a record deal"...like most people DONT lie about that...

- When there is always a convenient excuse when your weak-assness shows

- now its ok to talk during sex... but when you KEEP asking if she likes it. thats some weak shit. just DO IT! are you trying to re-assure yourself???

- When you are a FB groupie... if you find the girl attractive more than likely there are 10 more guys that day who thought the same and sent her the same "hey sexy hi u doin" message that you did

- when you are a broke drug dealer... yup I said it... and its most of yall! now when you go to jail you cant even bail yourself out!

- when you are not claiming or taking care of your kids... shit just aint cool.

well.... that is all...

oh and please believe the females got one comin to!

TTFN!

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Current Jamz::
"We Still" - Tamia

Quote of the day::
"imma need you to um.... get your life together IMMEDIATELY"

Everybody knows... nobody really knows (update on ME)

2009-01-15T23:27:00.000-08:00

So... as far as people thinkin I been MIA. HA! FOOLED YOU!

ME! apparently my mixtape is selling out... and apparently I got lots of fans right now. good shit

I kno yall kno this magazine... ong of my dreams was to be in this. well lets just say I'll be in LA feb 7th... SUPER GOOD SHIT!

sooooo.... here are some of my latest shots...

Photographer:: Anthony Collins... LOVES YOU!

Photographer:: Dante Marshall... LOVES YOU 2! lol... from the $10 photoshoot!
ATTENTION PEOPLE Dante is not a thief! you will get ur pics back... dont take "legal action" or anything lol. (ahhh lol that just tickled me)

THROWBACK PIC!

Photographer:: Duane Johnson... POOH! Def put all the girls on blast with his "throwback" facebook album... but I dont mind. I was hot and barely legal! lol
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So this is sum of the stuff I'm feelin right now!

Heres a new song my my buddy... I like it. SO U BETTER LIKE IT TOO!
Click here to listen/download "SAY YOU WILL FT. P.L."

Here is Dj Mo Beatz mixtape... hours and hours and days and days went into this so you should ummmm DOWNLOAD THE SHIT!

CLICK HERE to go to his blog and download the mixtape

I just really love this song :)

Emotional me... I'll always be that girl!

2009-01-13T23:27:00.000-08:00

I know this is gonna start off sounding like a regular "anti men" blog... but its not so just hear me out. lately I have been super emotional. I really just got out a 3 year... well I dont know weather to call it a relationship or a setback. now... it took me 3 years to find my strength because I was looking for "closure". well I finally have that and seriously I just realize it wasnt worth the extra wasted time. Every day waking up not knowing if I will be reminded once again how I wasnt "enough" and how someone else always was and being reminded of how weak I was. always being scared to leave just to find the next guy was gonna be just like him... honestly it was enough to drive a person crazy. but dispite all that... I did love him... once. so no the closure I finally found was not worth all the pain but the experiance of being in love was. I just now almost wish it would have ended sooner... so I wouldnt have all these horrible memories to block out the good ones from way back when. so another guy comes into my life and he's wonderful!... he would probably be more wonderful if I wasnt so crazy. lol. but eventhough things are not ending in a happily ever after this is good enough. they say everyone comes into your life for a purpose well he showed me I deserve for someone to be nice to me :) and thats a great feeling. Hes a wonderful guy... any girl that gets him is lucky as hell.but I do have a friend at the end of it... hopefully lol so thats my thanks to him. at the end of this whole ordeal I just realize I need to focus on myself and be happy with the people god has blessed me with. Love will come if you deserve it. and through everything my friends have been there. They have wiped my tears time and time again but never called me stupid. They have come to my resue whenever I needed. Brought me the flowers a boyfriend never has (paymon lol). spent time with me when I was alone. and I was ALWAYS good enough for them :) I'm prolly gonna get cussed out for even writing all this but he should know I love him... its just I can only be me and I can only make myself forgive so much before its a front.

so my points are at the end of this blog...

dont worry about nobody whos not worried about u
if your a good person you deserve that in return
at the end of they day love aint shit without a friendship and a respect
and sometimes closure is just realizing within yourself its not worth waiting for...

as of right now I am still stuck in detroit
got a test shoot with "SHOW MAGAZINE" on feb 7th... I'm geeked
school starts soon UGH!
My bestie kristen has decided to move to the promise land with me (phoenix)
YAY! I got alot on my plate...

but now I have accepted the fact I will never be a perfect girl
I'll always be ditzy, emotional, and alittle off... and yea sometimes I FREAK OUT!
but I can be happy with that :)

P.S..... Kanye West new album is like a soundtrack for suicide! WTF it makes me super depressed!

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Current Jamz::
"Rehab"- Rihanna

Quote of the Day::
"I'm so startled!" lmao (inside)

Scared of Lonely

2008-12-23T17:43:00.001-08:00

So heres an update on my life since I have been in phoenix

-I feel somewhat alone... like something is missing. but its not like I haven't for a while. I do although feel like this is the perfect opportunity to regain my unconditional happiness. All the people that love and care for me the most are here in spirit and they will always have my back even from across the country. I am very lucky and am working on building myself up

-I have been doing a lot of networking. and helping my new friend Stan with his All Star weekend events...
www.aceblack.com

-all the guys here have the same pickup line.... " do u like to party? " ummm and they r all pretty much weak as fuck. maybe I should attempt to meet an older man???... uck no nevermind. but the ones my age are so thirsty!!!

- I got my palms read... it was CRAZINESS I swear.

- Honestly right now I'm pretty upset... I kno wat I gotta do tho

- MY NOSE IS PIERCED! and is like super cute... but I guess I look just like mya now :-/

- My mother and I are opening a store here in downtown phoenix. well its really my store but i'm using her money :)

- "sometimes I feel like theres no gettin thru to you like you dont appreciate all that I do. you gotta show me that you want me to stay. dont turn and walk away. I'm slowly fallin out of love with you I dont know what to do"

- So apparently I'll be going for the cover of "AZ Nightlife" for the month of the All Star game... kool beans

- I will be in Detroit for Newyears! Yay! thanks 2 my big bro for buyin my ticket.

- I now LOVE the jonas brothers aka the Jo Bros lol

Does anyone see a problem with this damn thing! its just a backwards robe!

I think thats about it for now

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Current Jamz::
" Scared of lonely" - Beyonce

Quote of the day::
" your having a random outburst of thirst!"

Sad Shit, Cute Shit, and Funny Shit

2008-12-16T14:20:00.000-08:00

This shit if just fucking Sad. I cant even Laugh at a bitch being this dumb. Well Yes I can! lol

Now THIS little fucker is cute.... and I cant stop singing the song

No matter how many times I watch this I still CRY Laughing... U just gotta have my humor

So Check out my Buddy Scolla

2008-12-15T01:53:00.000-08:00

So I guess he comin out with a full length studio album.... should be hot shit!

Its called "THE PERFECTION THEORY" so look out for that

And click the link below to check out his new song

Click here to listen/download "Married Man"
and NOOOO its not a cake song lol...

TTFN

UNDER CONSTRUCTION! Me & My Blog :)

2008-12-07T00:02:00.000-08:00

My New Blog layout is currently under construction and so is my life. I recently moved to phoenix which is by far the BIGGEST move I have ever made. I had a hard enough time switching schools in high-school but even then I always had Kristen with me... we always ended up in the same place. I was afraid until I landed... I had finally left my comfort zone. But as I landed I honestly felt a sense of relief. I realized I had made myself comfortable in a mediocre setting. Allowing myself to be surrounded by drama and always looking for the next quick temporary fix. I made myself comfortable expecting disappointment and being content with the same ol same ol. Now I can focus on ME and bettering my life. Now I can worry about whats the next step to following my dreams instead of worrying about petty drama and what the next person will say. I know there is drama everywhere but this time I have a fresh start and a little more knowledge about how people can be. Looking back on my past and wonder maybe if I wasn't so nice could people have done the things they did to me. If I hadn't been so naive would I still have been taken advantage of. If I hadn't loved so hard could I still have been hurt. and if I hadn't made some of the mistakes I made would I still be the same person. but finally I am not worried about it anymore. I am ME! and that is wonderous! lol...and I have faith that me and my friends... my true friends... will be ok. Sure we will all grow and change but my REAL friends are naturally the most fun, original, quirky people and thats why we love each-other. We will be ok... I probably wont stay here forever but I am using this time to focus. I LOVE YOU ALL!.... Remember my page is under construction! TTFN!

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Current Jamz::
"what were you thinking" - Joss Stone

Quote of the Day::
"I realized I had become a grown woman when I started thinking more about myself and less about what people thought of me"

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You change your mind like a girl changes clothes...

2008-11-13T19:03:00.000-08:00

***UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE*** Laura Ann Sims Tyler is moving to phoenix AZ on Dec 3rd... so get ur fill of me now cuz I'm out this bitch! kinda excited. its crazy how everything happened. I'll be back a lot tho. apparently my producer doesn't wanna let me go.

-Last night I had soooooo much fun. I drank, laughed, and danced... and me and my girls were the most beautiful in the place as per usual. I got hit on by a girl.... I was flattered because that means I'm universally pretty! lol

-I realized I am spoiled when it comes to guys. like if I dont get my attention or at-least an explanation of why I am not getting it... I take it very personal. thats prolly not a good thing.

-So I guess my EX just happened to be moving to Phoenix also. I just found this out... hummmmmmm..... what does this mean??? eh... maybe nothing

-just wanted 2 let u kno "I take my shirt off and all the hoes stop breathin" lol

-My boobs hurt right now... could they b growing??? :) *wishful thinking*

-ok so EVERYBODY has a problem with me getting a small boy dog and naming him Walter... I like the name. its original lol

- if anybody wants 2 buy any furniture let me kno... or my car. cuz i sure as hell aint drivin it down there

-ITS RINK SEASON! yes thats right... The Rink opens This Friday and I will sure as hell be there to bless the ice. CMRS!

-Have you ever noticed that when u goin thru somethin Church ALWAYS be on point??

- Kristen u kno u gonna miss me... dont even front. 11 years bitch... after all this time I cant even get a new bestie

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Current Jamz::
"Hot & Cold" - Katie Perry

Quote of the Day::
"the first step to getting somewhere is deciding your not going to stay where you are"

Shawty say the nigga that she wit aint S***!

2008-10-26T10:59:00.000-07:00

First of all let me tell you I am STRESSED to the fullest.. I need a vacation but... thats not possible right now. For someone who's Birthday is tomorrow I think I should be a little happier. You know how adults dont get excited about birthdays anymore??? cuz they still gotta pay bills n shit... well thats me. maybe that means I'm growing up. I let my flock of niggas go... all but the important one. I just didn't have time for all that single shit... not saying I'm not single but I just dont have time to manage all the groupies that come along with being single.

Now let me say this... if I your gonna be with me, love me, build something with me... WANT ME FOR ME! you can't be with someone for a while then up and decide you wanna change them... I mean shit atleast try to change me while its still early in the relationship so I can see what your petty ass is really all about.
Also have you noticed someone might tell you they would never hurt you and blah blah blah and do that shit with no remorse... thats fucked up if you ask me. So basically your a LIAR!
"you always said you'd hate to see me hurt and you'd hate to see me cry... so all those times you hurt me... did you close your eyes?"

Enough of that relationship talk... So imma be wack on my Birthday. I really dont wanna do shit seeing as I'm turning into a old lady. I'm like the old lady that still bumps Gucci Mane and then turns on the Barry white :)

I love my sis MS. CRIS!.... seriously we r sum badddddd bitches... and we got sum shit comin for yall.

I'm moving to East Lansing....I'll be there within a month. I need some time away from detroit. Everybody leavin and I dont even blame them. But I will always "put on for my city" lmao

Ok so can someone Help me with my Reality show... I feel like I need & deserve one. atleast on youtube. it'll b fun :) plus I'm hella interesting.

Who noticed during the BET Awards Lil Wayne NEVER left the stage... seriously everytime someone else got an award there he was... during every performance there he was,... he rappin i songs he had no part in... The Weezy Awards???? hummmm I'm just sayin...

Well have a good day everyone....

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Current Jamz::
"shawty say" - David Banner Ft. Lil Wayne

Quote of the Day::
"Love doesnt make things easy. Just worth it"

Vote Me into the RealWorld!

2008-10-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

But your Just a boy... you dont understand

2008-10-13T23:28:00.000-07:00

Random blogging...

-I'm getting my life, morals and goals together. I need it. and I need to realize its ok to ask for help when you need it... I'm still workin on that one.

-Apparently I'm so talented that people wanna invest in me! yay!!! Imma b a SUPERSTAR!

- There comes a time when you have to decide weather you wanna spend more time hoping things will work out or take it ass a loss and just not waste anymore time.

- "I need a change of scenery because this one wasnt real. it was just a pretty picture of things I wanted to believe"

- ok sooooo my lil bro told me this girl looks like a moose that got beat with a ugly stick... WOW

- its my BIRTHDAY month... I'm a princess all month

-Never trust a man with 2 first names...

-I feel like I should have a reality show... perhaps I will start one

- Yay I have my friend back! :)

- Running on a treadmill = Going nowhere FAST!... thank my brother for that quote.

- Rink season is coming up. I'm excited. nobody understands my love for iceskating at campus martius more than CMRS

- "Whats all on a niggas mind" - T baby... now I say that after EVERYTHING!

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Current Jamz::
"if I were a boy" - Beyonce

Quote of the day::
"Just because your not with someone doesnt mean you dont love them. you just simply have to learn to live without them"

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I'm Fly like Paper I get High like Planes

2008-09-30T23:11:00.000-07:00

WOW its really been a while. So heres a random blog...

-Lansing with the besties was GREAT! and wonderfully Drunk. Then I saw Butt Butt... I guess he's semi still in my life. but is that really the way I want it??

-Partied with CMRS *YIPPEE*... I love them. The Liquor was flowing, secret crushes were revealed, Booty's were grabbed lol. Omar doing random Drunkin Push-ups. My right hand man is always drunk and shirtless and rambling... He claimed to have raised us all. still wondering how that possible if we all met like 2 years ago :-/

-"what would you say... if I told you... you was... FINE!" - me

-Seriously I gotta get outa this house with my father. He's crazy. Apartment shopping NOW!

-its SO hard to keep your head up when people seem to be obsessed with seeing you fail. no-matter how sad I get all I wanna do is kill them with success :) so who's gonna be down for me???

-I submitted a youtube of me singing to this contest at random! lol

-I SWEAR this nigga think I'm dumb. Dont forget I know every trick in the book cuz I've Done Them ALL! but ay if you like it I love it... its all Gravy Baby! :)

- I HATE fat girls that think they r just THICK.... its a major difference. Thick Girls dont have a GUT! and STOP GETTIN BELLY RINGS!

-Got some new Iceskates. makes me smile :)

-So my Birthday is Coming up (OCT 27th)... and i'm happy to say I am still Child Free!!!!* YIPPEE*

-I kinda miss my Rooster... just a little bit! You better not have found you another chicken! lol

- Dunlap:: The fat that Dun Lapped over yo pants!

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Current Jamz::
"Paper Planes" - M.I.A.

Quote of the day::
"What would you say if I told you... you was... FINE"

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I wanna LIVE!

2008-09-24T19:04:00.001-07:00

today I decided I wanna live. and not just be alive but LIVE! I wanna be happy not practical. I dont wanna play it safe. I'm not happy right now. What I am is stable. nothings REALLY that bad. Everything is... Normal. But seriously whats about "normal" screams FUN! EXCITING! or SPECTACULAR! Those are words that I wanna be able to use to describe my life and how I feel about it. Today I went to see "The Family that Preys". It was a wonderful movie. It got me really thinking about life though. A woman asked "are you really living or are you just existing?". I have been asking myself that question all day. Then today someone VERY close to my heart attempted to take his life. The truth is I have had a moment like that so I know what that feels like. To think life cant get ANY better and it hurts so much to think that someone I care for so much could feel that same pain that I once felt and very much still understand. I dont want anyone to think they cant LIVE and be happy...and I dont want anyone to feel that low because I know that thats like... it sucks! So I'm gonna do everything I can to make sure I dont even get close to that road again and neither do anyone I care for. I'm just really upset right now and for whatever reason this lil blog helps me vent and sort out my head.

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Current Jamz::
"live your life"- TI ft Rihanna

Quote of the Day::
"Are you Really Living or just Existing"

This love is takin all of my Energy

2008-09-17T20:39:00.000-07:00

So as of right now... itunes on shuffle, AIMing Stef, thinking of a master plan. I need to move out ASAP so I think me n Stef are gonna do that. Once again... caught in limbo with the EX... UGH! I just wanna be happy... when will it be my turn??? like do you ever think hey... when will it be MY turn to be happy??? when will it be MY turn to fall in love??? seriously... I'm like this. If imma actually be WITH someone I either want the REAL thing or simply to just be single and have fun. Those Semi-Serious relationships that last all of a couple months are so pointless. I realize that I DESERVE to be some ones one n only. And Settling for less and I deserve is another form of doubt in myself.

-Wrote a note on FB about giving away the secrets to being a player... really just to prove to the players that even after their groupies read my note and notice all the signs they still wont stop talking to them. Simply because people believe what they want to in the end. so if you dont wanna believe your getting played despite all the signs you simply just wont believe it.

-Random Thought:: I LOVE KERI HILSON! seriously... she had 2 grow on me but i love her music now and her hair cut is so pretty

-So here are some random sexual terms me n my friends have stumbled across this past week::

*DickMitten = Vagina

*Have you misplaced jesus lately???= Have you had sex lately??... heres the back story. My friend had a this guy... a "Friendly Fuck" so one day he goes to church and returns and says "we cant have sex anymore because I found jesus" but he calls a week later wanting to fuck... so was jesus misplaced??? I'm just sayin...

*Would you like to experience the Chronicles of Narnia? = Would you like to have sex?

-So this random girl told my friend I told her all of his business... but in reality I have never had a conversation with this girl in my life. dont even kno who she is... Bitch your random

OH YEA New Pics::

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Current Jamz::
"Energy"- Keri Hilson

Quote of the day::
"never settle for less that you deserve because thats another form of doubt in yourself"

UGH mad at my father

2008-09-07T09:22:00.000-07:00

So its begun... My father is back to acting like the Ass-Hole that he is. Its clear to me that he was just acting nice until I got settled into the house. Moving back home was a HUGE mistake and I cant lie... EVERYONE who knows my father knew it was just a front but I didn't listen. I think its time to move back out so right now I'm thinkin of a master plan.Thinking about just going to Chicago early.Seriously I find myself avoiding him like in the house like I used to. I thought we were past this. On another note... one of my visions is finally all coming together. I'm just waiting on one phone call to make it complete. everything else is going good. The music thing is going well also. The only things bringing me down is my damn father and its so hard because I live with this FOOL so I can only avoid him so much. I think thats all for now....

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Current Jamz::
"As We Lay" - Kelly Price

Quote of the day::
"The only way that this will work is if you love me when it hurts"

Robbed By Probably

2008-08-31T15:01:00.000-07:00

your probably gonna stay around
you'll probably love me forever
I'll probably end up marring you
and We'll probably stay together
Your probably happy with me
You'll probably be there through thick and thin
You'll probably never leave me
and We'll probably be together in the end
you'll probably always be in my life
and I'm probably all you'll ever need
All this time I stuck with this
while probably was robbing me
robbing me of my chance to live
and to find something real
robbed me of every chance I had
to see and breath and feel
now because I spent my time on a probably
I'll probably never find anything true
I only had one life to live
wasted on a probably like you

-Laura

Worthless Pennies and New Beginings

2008-08-30T21:47:00.000-07:00

feeling so... BLAH. So I'm excited about fall coming. I'm excited about school, My birthday,and dressing up on halloween. Then winter brings all my favorite holidays... Christmas and Valentines day. My last 2 valentines days sucked ass. Crashed my car one year then the other was just a sucky day thanks to the *wonderful* guy I was dating at the time. I been taking things slow this time. giving myself time to get over the past and to slowly grow into something else. Always following my right mind and not listening to anyone elses little input or whatever they have to say. I can honestly say I'm happy. but the deeper I get the scarier it is."love is like fire. but whether its gonna warm your heart or burn down your house you can never tell" . but its better than my past I can tell you that. I kinda pushed him away yesterday. its so hard not to do that when you have been hurt before. I'm even so much happier with the friends I have. most of my friend I have known for years! and I know they always have my best interest at heart. Even the newbies I have good feelings about.

-Currently in The Musk! AKA Muskegon. Visiting my grandparents. My grandmother doesnt remember anything and kinda just blabs out the first words that come to her mind which dont make sense most of the time. right now shes talking about "loving cookies" . so we just got her some cookies... maybe thats not even what she wanted :-/

- So my boy sent me a text that said "vote for Obama or be a slave"... I mean seriously everybody keeps complaining about how the U.S. has been run for the past 8 years. Why wouldnt we vote in someone who atleast wants and hopes for major change just as we all do??? I'm just sayin...

-My brother finds out he might be diabetic. but he doesnt fret... A quote from my brother Stephen Tyler "it aint shit boosie got that shit 2"... so basically what I'm getting at it Boosie is a inspiration for young people with diabetes.

-Me n Stef r laughing right now... Got this quote from my girl "you like a penny 2 faced and worthless"

- Imma need someone 2 find Darnell! Hes lost in Houston . I'm sending out a search party.

- If you dont like me... then dont like me and dont acknowledge me. dont speak on me, speak 2 me, read my blogs, look at my page, make any I hate Laura clubs...just erase this person you hate so much out of your life and memory because clearly thats the better solution than dwelling on someone that wont change. Plus I'm WONDEROUS! why would I change??? lol if your reading this and you dont like me... it means your a borderline obsessed PSYCHO!

- So me n Terryl just had the biggest laugh ever!!!! nigga u just cant go around *stabbin* anybody lmao! but I think we got to the bottom of your problem!

- I learned about The Link, The Rating System, and Back dooring all in one visit... I dont promote any of this... I'm Anti-Back dooring.

- I hate freshman boys who think they got game and they r the shit just cuz they were the shit in high school. NEWS FLASH! you start over when you get to college... your fresh meat and trust me thats not a cool thing to be.

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Current Jamz::
"you got it bad" - Usher

Quote of the day- "your like a penny. 2faced and worthless"

its so cold in tha D... how the fuck do we posed to keep peace???

2008-08-26T22:12:00.000-07:00

I kinda feel bad for laughing so hard and shes talking about death... but I cant help it!!!

side note:: notice her friend in the background smiling and dancing the whole time!!!

My Booty is BIG! lmao

2008-08-25T12:44:00.000-07:00

-I started school today :-/ I wanna take online classes. but Dance is fun and easy just because I took beginners dance knowing I been dancing since I was small

- We went and partied in Canada on saturday.. me, stef, and Chrissy! and we met the guy from beauty and the geek lol

-I'm so happy I got one of my friends back. I'm surrounded by wonderful people.

- So I mean I kno my booty is BIG but Stef keeps being a hater. Imma just keep shakin my big ol dunk until she realize that she cant bring me down lol... yall cant handle all this!

- " I'm tryna stack my Boo's up high" - Chrissy! I love my twin

- Still waiting on them to play "jesus walks" or "S.E.X" in the club so I can freak dance with some guy just to be outa line lol

- So Summer is coming to an end...Time to get boo'd up. instead of ya man lookin around at bitches in bikini's wit they ta ta's all out... soon they will be forced to look at bitches in bulky sweaters that show no shape at all. he will appreciate you more in the months to come.

- ok so who remembers the Rap Duo Smilez & South Star??? "love, hate , mistakes, tell me what you think is goin on..." WTF happened 2 them??? sorry just randomly going thru my limewire on my old CPU...Definitely bought that CD tho :-/

- so I saw this "ol Momma lookin girl" on friday... Disappointment overwhelms me. There is no reason why a young girl should look like a middle aged mother.

- If I sent you a text and it just happen to be a VIRUS... I'm so sorry. I swear it was just suppose to be a picture :(

Well I'm about to continue Dancing around in my undies to the Jackson 5... TTFN

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Current Jamz::
"the love you save" - Jackson 5

Quote of the Day::
"He got this model chic and she dont cook or clean but she dress her ass off and her walk is mean. The only thing wrong with ma' shes always on the scene. Damn she fine but she parties all the time!"

oh yea new pics!!!!

Its this one thing that got me trippin!

2008-08-19T22:39:00.000-07:00

-Wonderous day "its this one thing that got me trippin"

-So was hanging around a bunch of old men this evening that like young pretty girls. But fortunately me n Alex made it fun.. We will steal ur food and leave lmao.

-So I just happen to think boosie is like the hypest rapper living "hit em up hit em up hit em up lets get it!"

-"one things fa sho. you will get called a BITCH so mutha fuckin fast" lmao @ 2 short

-I'm in a musical mood. I love it...

-Wishing a Certain Friend of mine would know that I am his friend and I love and miss him. Eventho I guess he's mad at me. I'm "off limits" apparently :-/ arg

-Me n Chyna are on a mission for happiness no matter what. and are happy with our small refined circle of friends.

- So happy for my favorite bestest whore and my side dish. lol they r ment for eachother.

- my dad gave me a 1 1/2 hour talk about the following::
*Detroit
*Oil
*Electric cars
*Obama
... Then I caught him playing the sims later that night lmao

-Happy Birthday 2 >>>YOU<<<

- Oh yes my shoot yesterday was WONDERFUL perhaps my best yet. Pics Coming soon

-I seriously love life right now. every time I get a little down I realize that I shouldnt dwell on minor things. You are a much more beautiful person when you radiate genuine happiness!

-I just cant do it anymore... letting go

-Comment Comment Comment!

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Current Jamz::
" Story of a girl" -Ninedays

Quote of the day::
"Your more beautiful when you radiate genuine happiness"

I might as well enjoy my life and watch the stars play

2008-08-17T14:26:00.000-07:00

I havent blogged in a while so I figured it was necessary. I have noticed that alot of people say they read my blogs but defiantly dont comment. FEED BACK WOULD BE NICE!!!!... but anycrap. Drama continues but I realized I took the right path by ignoring it. Eventually people will realize they talk for no reason. I have been having alot of fun doing the simplest things. My circle of friends is becoming more refined. I can genuinely love the friends I have and go out of my way for them because I know they would do the same for me. sometimes I might be foolishly nice but I am surrounding myself with people who wont take advantage of that. Finally all moved out and preparing for the next major move... CHICAGO! sometimes when people who were suppose to never leave your side turn on you its easy to get discouraged but I'm just gonna keep pushing and keep smiling (because it comes so natural anyway lol... maybe to the point where its weird). I cant care how many people dont like me because there are soooooo many more who do :) I just wanna Love and be nice to everyone! lol since when is that a bad thing????

update on the past few days::

Riding in a Uhaul with charles and kristen listing to 80's rock while charles does a gay trucker voice lol finally got the furniture out. if you know anyone who wants 2 buy some furniture let me kno!!!

Clubbin on friday... I had SO MUCH FUN! we all looked beautiful and I had not a bad thought in my head all night. I love those girls. And we went to the "Murda Mac" (you dont wanna fuck with that lol).... as per usual. "want alittle violence with that burger??" lol

Yesterday Chillin with the girls during the day then went to Hart Plaza in the evening with CMRS (campus martius rink staff) and clowned. I love my CMRS lil bro's. I realize I am very fortunate for all of my male friends. I'm lucky to have such good ones. Then we went to Sams house. I missed him... he's like me in a guys body. SO FABULOUS! then at night chilled with my homies at Alex's. she got a new kitten. YAY!

ok so I really think I should be mayor. like seriously Kwame has done nothing but fuck up.... keep fuckin up our cars with these detroit pot holes... embarrass us as a city (detroits mayor is wearing a damn tether) and well... I guess he kept the grass cut on bell isle :-/. Kwame prolly wakes up... smokes a kush blunt... takes a shot of patron and then runs your city. He aint shit. just something to think about

I Heard my dad playing the sims downstairs yesterday... i was kinda disturbed

Life is wonderful!!! Photoshoot 2moro... wish me luck!!!!

Current Jamz::
"Beverly Hills" - Weezer

Quote of the Day::
"where I come from from isnt that great, my automobile is a piece of crap. my fashion sense is alittle out of wack and my friends are just as cool as me"

Lost in Love

2008-08-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

I cant lie. I'm really annoyed right now. Especially cuz I was napping when the new bullshit happened. Me n "the Ex" will never be even just "ok" it seems like. He's just has this paranoid way of thinking but still not giving a fuck at the same time. Its a weird and seemingly impossible combo but I can tell you one thing... its a sucky combo as well. The most fucked up part of all this is that I already know whats gonna happen next because I been through it so many times before.Of coarse everything is up to fate anyway so you neva kno......but yet thru all of this I'm in a musical mood. Oh yea and apparently my tires are about to explode lol( but serious tho) but so much has to be done so I'm driving on them tonight.pray for me :)

Current Jamz::
"the ex factor" -Lauryn Hill

Quote of the Day::
"Girls who are easy on the eyes are not easy on the heart"

Life is like a box of chocolates

2008-08-06T16:05:00.000-07:00

so ummmm unfortunately my laptop charger is not broken so I am forced to use a regular ass computer. This week has been crazy and drama filled. I am still continuing to hear outlandish rumors about myself but surprisingly I am becoming happier and happier as the days go by. I am realizing what a real friend is and I am being prepared for the fabulous life I know I am destined to live. Instead of being just sad and depressed as I would be if this were to have happened a year ago I giggle at these rumors and peaty drama. I watch as people run around like little rats just trying to stir up something. I let this motivate me to still be the bigger person. This little bump in the road makes me look at my past accomplishments and look inside myself for the motivation to accomplish more. Friends are not just "cool ass people".... your friends are your friends and will have your best interest at heart. Cool ass people are just that... nothing more nothing less. The hard part sometimes is separating the two. Basically I'm saying its time to get serious and stop worrying about who's my friend. I got 3 photo shoots and a bunch more surprises I'm super excited about :)

Current Jamz::
"hey ma"-Camron

Quote of the Day::
"what do you do when the whole world turns against you??? shut up, sip a cosmo, and watch the flies drop"

In over My head

2008-07-27T16:12:00.000-07:00

I have been through alot this week and realized alot of things. I have a hand full of real friends and I'm happy with that. Some people socialize with everyone and dont have one real friend and I'm so lucky not to be like that. I'm gonna stop tryna please everyone and be thankful for the friends I have and who are pleased by me just being myself. "the EX" has been around all this week. Thats a whole other confusing story in its self :-/ Sometimes I wish I never met him so it would be easier but that would be like erasing a part of myself. In a strange way he is still like my best-friend and I find comfort in him..... I'm moving back home to my dads house to prepare for the BIG move.... to chicago. Nobody gets it but a couple people. I ALWAYS wanted to move to chicago. I dont necessarily wanna stay forever but its something I would love to experience. Plus I think living somewhere else makes someone a more interesting person. This party promoting stuff is getting to be a drag.... not enough money and way to much drama. I have never been one to be full of drama even in high school. It seems since Ive been in the party scene I have not only heard so much random stuff about myself but drama is seeming to follow me. I just wanna LIVE!!!!!!

On another note ...Random things I been thinkin about::
I hate how niggas say "no homo" after everything. ok so have u noticed its either to cover up something not homo at all like "that nigga shirt is sweet as hell... NO HOMO!" which in this case it in-fact amplifies the fact that you are not comfortable with your sexuality and makes you seem oh so homo. OR its to try to cover up something EXTREMELY Homo like "I like to rub lube around my butt hole.... NO HOMO!!!" Which in this case "no homo" cannot excuse the homo moment you just had... just a thought.. LOSE THE PHRASE "NO HOMO"

Another thing.... Ladies.... if your man is not fucking you it IS for one of the following reasons::
1. He's fucking someone else
2.He cant get it up and he dont wanna hoe his self
3. He's gay....

Dont fight it.... guys just dont turn down pussy.

Also... Atlanta is starting to piss me off 4real. Its taking all my friends for NO FUCKING REASON!!! ... I mean I can understand if you actually DO have REAL business opportunities waiting for you there but other than that people are just going to atlanta because they think its the fucking promise land... yes... ATL is WAYYYY better than detroit but NEWS FLASH!!!!! Detroit just has a fucked up economy so almost EVERYWHERE is better than Detroit. But still the chances of you moving to Atlanta and walking down the street and someone offering you a wonderful job is still slim to none. Lets expand our thoughts to more than just Atlanta because its becoming the default city real talk. and your gonna walk down the street and see 10 people you went to high school with because EVERYBODYS MOVING TO ATLANTA!!!!

just some thoughts...

Current Jamz::
"in over my head"- The Fray

Quote of the Day::
"I wish you were a stranger I could disengage. just say that we agree and then never change"

One Day

2008-07-23T13:27:00.000-07:00

One day I'll be happy
One day I'll be satisfied
One day I'll wake up
And forget all the tears I cried
One day I'll get it together
One day friends will be real
One day I'll get over
The things only time can heal
One day I'll stop cryin
and wake up with a smile apon my face
One day I'll open up my heart
and find another to take his place
One day I'll get away
To a place I wanna be
One day I'll stop caring so much
and start doing things 4 me
One day things will change
but today is not that day
I gotta make a change tho
Some how some way

-Laura

Random free write... its not that good but its ok for something quick

Stalkers, Sisters, Rumors, & Drunkin Nights

2008-07-21T12:35:00.001-07:00

So Let me start by saying that I'm Wonderous.....

At Berts Saturday I was having a wonderous time as usual when my laughter soon came to a hault when I realized crazy ass dave with the grill brought his old ass into this 18+ club... being the crazy person that he is he harassed me the entire night. Despite my attempts to ignore him he continued to follow me to the car ranting and raving about god knows what until I ran into a group of guys that happen to be bigger than him. By The way I was Drunk as hell.... I couldnt even drive. (Side note:: NEVER DRINKING AGAIN!!!). I also ran into someone who helped me out alot.... someone's "sister". Thanks girl. I just needed to get that clarity.

As far as my last blog. I feel WAY better about everything now. Thanks for caring :)
"if I didnt do the things I do I wouldnt be me"... Well if thats what you tell yourself to convince yourself that your are a good person then so be it lol

Apparently Alex, Randi, & I are being stalked.... cool for me because I have fans....not cool for them because I guess they have nothing better to do. NOTE TO STALKER('s):: Hello.... its nice to know you love me :) the feeling isnt mutual

Woah is me *hand on 4head* the life of a facebook celebrity is SOOOO hard lol

Seriously I wish I could just move away and start over.... but I'm so scared of finding the same unhappiness I have here :(
Dante Lets just go! lol

Current Jamz::
"Thanks for the Memories" -Fall out boy

Quote of the Day::
"Drama doesnt follow me it rides on my back"

Give me something to believe in...

2008-07-18T11:57:00.000-07:00

once again.... "the ex" has proved everyone right. fucked up again. flipped it around on me. and made me cry. He's sorry... ok but thats not enough to heal everything he has never even apologized for on top of this. Yes we are broken up but that doesnt excuse constant disrespect toward someone you supposedly love.Maybe I'm just to nice... and to sensitive. so for the first time... I have nothing to say. I went through so many emotions in the past 24 hours and now I'm just numb....

Current Jamz::
"Makes me wonder" -Maroon 5

Quote of the Day::
"give me something to believe in cuz I dont believe in you anymore"

Good day... well not really.

2008-07-15T22:08:00.000-07:00

SO my car wont start AND I need to find somewhere to move to ASAP. Of corse I got friends and family and well... my ex (now sure what to call him) wanting me with them. But I gotta find my own and I'm not rushing a thing. I miss "the ex" but in a way of like missing the past I guess. I mean who doesnt kinda miss the feeling of fresh love in the air. but in the same sense I know it will never be the same because I will NEVER be enough anymore so I stopped trying.which always now gives me the feeling of not being enough for the next guy or anything for that matter.I love him but that doesnt mean shit will get better.Maybe thats wat is fucked up because some people NEVER find love... and this is like a wase of it. plus time. Butt butt has been crankey... but eh... as much as I try to make everyone happy sometimes I just cant but crankey people scare me because I'm so happy and I dont want anyone to bring me down. but I actually seem to care about him alot which is scary. Me n Randi got in our first real arguement... it makes me nervous because it hurts to lose people. not saying just one arguement will cause me to lose someone but I just dont like the feeling. Money is somewhat of an issue right now because I need so much at one time. I'm moving and my car got broken at the same time. I guess I might have to join the work force :-/. my mom read my horoscope... well a more indetail one just about my personality based on the date and time of my birth. it was creepy because it was 100% right. is it 2 early to start planning my birthday party if its in october??? I been a real bitch 2day because I feel hopeless.... but 2moro I'm gonna have a good day.

Current Jamz::
"Good Day" -Nappy Roots

Quote of the day::
"just because you love someone doesnt mean you have to be with them. Love is not a bandage to heal wounds"

Them young girls. they do get weary. Maybe if we had beautiful insides we wouldnt have that problem :-/

2008-07-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

eh.... dont know how to feel about today. my father is a complete retard and ruined the first half of my day. so after I came home and to my surprise zeno and damon were at my house with the other member 2 the "brothers four"... and he was just as wonderful as the rest :) we are going to make beautiful music together. lol because he will be writing a song for me soon. I'm super excited about that. then they left me :( *sad times*. Then I got another honesty box message telling me how apparently I'm not that pretty and I have a horrible attitude and I'm oh so stuck up. and telling me I need to work on my inner beauty :-/.... I guess I'm suppose to have a Beautiful pancreas??? lol but seriously this is clearly another person who got all their info off of facebook or possibly some he said she said because they dont seem to know me very well :-P...*sigh* the life of a facebook celebrity. Went to visit a friend... we had fun for a short period of time. I needed to get my mind off of some things and he helped. I come home and realized I only talked to butt butt baby once today and it was only for like 2 seconds! WATS ALL THAT ABOUT?!?! ANARCHY!!!!!!!!! Seriously...y am I so concerned???? all these things keep going thru my head wondering why I haven't had much contact all day. I need to shake this feeling and not get attached. I'll get it together.... at the end of the day I just wanna love and be loved... but I'm always to scared to take those steps towards it. I need somebody to "try a little tenderness" lol

Current Jamz::
"Try a little tenderness" - Chris brown

Quote of the day::
" I'm tired of this crap about beauty only being skin deep. What am I suppose to have a beautiful pancreas?!?!"

something i thought was funny :)

Ghetto Superstar.... Well... not exactly but I am a Facebook Celebrity lol

2008-07-08T00:22:00.000-07:00

Today was a simple yet fun day. I went swimming in the little baby indoor pool for all of 15 minutes with randi and kris. Ate Cho-Chos (nachos) . I had way more fun than I thought 2day... went to a secret location. We watched TV and Video Games and Ate Snacks :)... Talked to my ex that was... confusing in its self. He gives me mixed emotions. but for the most part its always like a heartbreaking feeling all over again. Just like the first, second, third, fourth, and so on times he has been so careless with my heart. Anycrap... enough of that emotional shit.random:: Being in real studios does nothing but make me wonder what it would be like if it were me. could it be me? I feel like it would be to late and to random for the most part because I'm simply known for just being lucky laura. I spent to much time letting myself be held back by others.

Memory:: Little 4 year old me running around the house puttin on Aretha Franklin and singing along to "chain of fools" lmao...

Random thought:: I would hate to be ugly.... Beauty cant give you everything but it can give you more than someone without good looks...
I'd also hate to be poor...
NEWS FLASH!!!! MONEY is NOT the Root to all Evil... LACK of Money is!!!
Sorry just keepin it real ya'll

Back to my blog. So I AM apparently a Facebook Celebrity from what I'm being told. From my Notes, Video blogs, status', Pics etc... but what will it take for me to be a all around true celebrity??? hard work? dedication?... ok thats fine with me but where do I start because I'm unsatisfied now with being just a "Facebook Celebrity". On another note... I have a lot of great people in my life. I'm so pleased about that. I'm so fortunate to have these people because I could be stuck with sucky boring people in my life. "the simplest things are the best"... I dont like people for what they have or what they can do for me. I just want someone to go 2 meijer with me at 5am to drive the handicapped carts thru the toy section! lmao. I just love these people because they can fill my life with wonderous random moments :)

Current Jamz::

"Ghetto Superstar"- ODB Ft Mya

Quote of the Day::

"I dont care about making money. I just want to be Wonderful!"

Being Grown Up isnt Half as Fun as Growing Up

2008-07-06T13:30:00.000-07:00

Finding yourself should be fun! Sure we all are gonna mess up but its apart of growing so why cant it just be counted as just that. Not saying that mistakes should go without consequence but people are so judgmental these days. Me personally I dont wanna be like everyone else and I dont feel like I should be judged for that. I'm defiantly not trying to be grown up right now but I'm welcoming the journey with open arms. Sometimes the journey is the best part. I know I cant do it according to what everyone else thinks is the right way. I gotta take my own path :) I'm trying to surround myself now with people who are understanding and accepting of that. Its hard because for so long all the important people in my life held me back as I allowed them to. My dad laughs in my face constantly laughs in my face at my feelings, hopes, and dreams. He bribes me and pushes me to stay at this effin community college in hopes that I will become more practical. My mother just isnt happy unless I move to Arizona to be with her. My ex who I just happen to love to death just cant seem to accept me for the person I am and have always been. It kinda has hurt feeling like nothing I am or want can please them. The feeling of unworthiness is a bitch. But now I kinda figured I gotta do what I want for me and hope we can all fall into place and be accepting of each other. I'm just gonna enjoy my journey to grown up land.

Current Jamz::
" I'm in love with a girl" -Gavin DeGraw

Quote of the day::

"being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up. these are the best years of our lives. All that really matters if just following our hearts and eventually we'll finally get it right"